Student Loans Can Suck My Ass

I think everyday I have an existential crisis. The reality of adult life is hitting me more and more everyday. You work for the rest of your life to pay bills. This just means you have to find your own joy.


Spoiler alert: I haven’t found it yet.

Anyway onto the loan discussion:

Sallie Mae is a bitch. I don’t understand how a person (I’m assuming the company is named after or owned by someone) can take such joy in stealing money from hardworking students who need a degree to get a job.


A visual representation of my feelings

I mean I am the future of this country. Okay, that’s a little too presumptuous, but some people (not me) might be the next president or something. But seriously, it’s ridiculous how much we all pay for something that is basically required to do anything. I can only look forward to when I pay off my student loans in a couple decades.


Also I’ve been watching Seinfeld recently and I would like the 90’s style to come back.


Where Were the AHS Stans for Roanoke????

(I’m writing this post in honor of my roommates, my boyfriend, and I. We are going to a haunted asylum tour at 1 am to see some ghosts. Hopefully we don’t die.)

Last weekend, I binged the whole 6th season of American Horror Story: Roanoke. The AHS success has popularized a unique form of television; each season has different themes/storylines/characters, but the actors are pretty much all the same from season to season. It’s like the SNL of horror.


This season is told as a true crime story. A couple (Lily Rabe and Andre Holland) tell their “Roanoke Nightmare” in a sit down interview while actors (Sarah Paulson and Cuba Gooding Jr) reenact the story.


‘Real life’ Matt and Shelby Miller

“My Roanoke Nightmare” aired in 2015 and ‘is a huge success’ (in the AHS universe, of course). For the second season, the producer, played by Cheyenne Jackson, has the actors and the real couple come back to house where the haunting happened. The ‘reality’ is shown purposefully: the couple break down in interviews, the producer is shown on camera, and we even see fans of the ‘tv show.’ It is honestly the bloodiest, craziest season of American Horror Story I have ever seen. The fact that Sarah Paulson plays 2 people is stunning. Both characters are distinct and believable.


Sarah Paulson playing an actor playing Shelby Miller

This season has a quiet terror to it. It is not as distinctly weird or fantastical as Murder House or Freak Show. There is a gritty reality that settles over you. This season take meta to the extreme: mixing story and reality in a way that is mind blowing and scary. This element is what makes it so haunting. We are the fans that get murdered because they refuse to believe the story is real. That unnerving eeriness is what really gets to me.

So my final question is: Where was the hype last year?? (I most definitely mean both of those questions marks.) Every season is usually so popular. Where were the AHS stans? Maybe they’ll appreciate this incredible season now that they can binge it on Netflix.

It (2017) Review

Every time I post I feel like I have to say I’m back. Usually, I get inspired and I have to start typing. This weekend I was inspired by It (2017), based on the Stephen King novel. The film and novel focuses on a group of friends who battle a demon that takes the shape of a clown. Every 27 years, It awakens and kills children. The novel tells the story of the kids and then later in their adulthood 27 years later. The film has a coming of age element mixed with classic Americana small town horror.


Pennywise (portrayed by Bill Skarsgård)

Going into the film, I honestly didn’t really care about it. I’ve never really cared about Stephen King novels before. I only was going because my boyfriend, who is a Stephen King and horror movie fanatic, really wanted to go. I am very happy that he dragged me to the movie theater.

It is a fantastically well made film. Anyone looking for a great film, Stephen King adaptation, and a horror movie has come to right place. Never in my life have I ever seen a movie twice in theaters. I saw It again the next day.

The highlight of this movie is the child actors. THESE KIDS ARE GOOD! I’m so upset we aren’t getting the chance to see them play their older selves in 27 years. (My secret wish is for the second part to come out in 27 years. How cool and meta would that be?!) They embody these characters to a tee. They are dynamic and emotional actors and their performances add as much to the film as editing, music, directing, and production design does combined. The film would not have worked if the losers club did not have the talent and chemistry of seasoned actors. (Please enjoy this YouTube video of the kids talking about their roles.)


So here is the one con to this film… it’s so well made, I forgot to be afraid. The plot development, camera work, and acting are so good that I couldn’t focus on anything else. Bill Skarsgård is so scary and demonic as Pennywise, but I could sleep at night afterwards. I think that that will be It‘s downfall. The storyline and filmmaking is actually distracting from the horror of it all. (The truth is we only like our horror movies to have barely there plots and jump scares.)

BOTTOM LINE: I LOVED IT!! It (2017) will be a classic horror film. 10/10 would watch 27 more times in theaters.

Insidious V. The Conjuring: James Wan’s Directing (Also Patrick Wilson is hot AF)

My brother first introduced me to George Romero’s Living Dead series (Night of the Living Dead etc) and the Evil Dead series and that’s where my love for horror grew. Among my favorites are 28 Days Later, Insidious, Paranormal Activity, and The Conjuring. 

The Conjuring Series and Insidious (plus the sequel) have 2 people in common: James Wan, the director, and Patrick Wilson, who plays the lead character in both films.

James Wan first gained success with the horror series, Saw. His directing changed the genre back in 2004. The deliberate gore pushed the limits of mainstream horror. Insidious offers a much more psychological and fantastical version of horror. It got some terrible reviews mostly for the let down in the second half. The demon was too cartoonish to be scary for most viewers.

Personally, the buildup and storyline is really well done. Insidious‘ story is complex enough to draw viewers in, but simple enough to follow. (No one wants to rewatch Inception!!!!) The world in Insidious, created by Leigh Whannell, is just as creepy and intense as The Conjuring universe. BUT there is a degree more grittiness because The Conjuring is rooted in reality.

Wan’s directing reflects the change in mood. The shadowing is very similar, but the coloring of the 2 films is completely different. The colors in the top picture are dull and dark while in the second the colors are still rich and expressive. This versatility in mood IN THE SAME GENRE is pretty awesome.


The Conjuring (2013)

Insidious 2011 movie scene(2)

Insidious (2010)

The only reason I mentioned Patrick Wilson is talk about his adaptability and how hot he is. My roommates would say that he is “daddy af” (I’m not going to explain what that means). the-conjuringWilson is able to make the jump from modern day father (who gets possessed) to 1970’s paranormal investigator. Wilson is also great in Fargo!!!

Sorry I’ve been gone… I GOT A JOB THO

I’m back again. I’ve been gone for so long because I GOT A FULL TIME JOB!!!!!!!!!!


I am now a customer care analyst at a startup company, Nurx. Here’s a shameless plug for my job: Nurx is an online service that makes getting birth control and PReP easy and quick. You can get your prescription and medication through us and then it will be shipped to your door! I really like it so far and I’m learning about the wonders of healthcare and insurance.

My current problem is that I don’t get paid until the end of the month which is terrible. I hate that you have to skip a payday when you first start a job. I WANT MY MONEY NOW. I need it for stuff and things.


Okay so here’s a list of everything I’ve been watching since I’ve been gone…

  • The Walking Dead (the American classic)
  • Boys Over Flowers (a very interesting Korean Drama)
  • Kingdom (NICK JONAS IS A BOXER… need I say more?)
  • The Bachelorette (RACHEL PICKED THE WRONG MAN)
  • Younger (Hilary 4ever)
  • Annabelle: Creation and other movies I can’t remember

I will definitely be writing some posts about these shows (and maybe The Conjuring universe) soon so be on the look out!

Thanks for hanging in while I adjusted to my new adult life.

This is Old News, but “Younger” is Amazing!

So I’ve given in and applied to a job at the mall. Yes, I’m throwing it back to high school and I may be working a minimum wage job. The scary thing is I don’t mind because I’m that desperate for a job. The couple of jobs where I got interviews didn’t work out and I think it’s mostly because I don’t have “experience.” I honestly think that employers want 40 year old women to apply to these jobs. Even entry level jobs require some experience. And for the record, I have had jobs before. My job (and internships!!!!!!!!!!) at school should count.

I just started watching the show Younger. I’m aware that I’m very late to this party. This show actually premiered in 2015 and is currently on it’s 4th season. Younger is about Liza, a 40 year old woman who is trying to make in the publishing business. Like many older women, she stopped her career to have children. When she realizes that being 40 isn’t helping her at all, Liza disguises herself as a 26 year old. The show sounds crazy, but thanks to Hilary Duff (YEAH THAT’S RIGHT) and Sutton Foster, who plays Liza, the storyline totally works.


Hilary Duff and Sutton Foster

The great thing about this show is that it not only depicts an older woman’s struggle, but the post grad struggles too.


Look at this QUEEN

Liza and Kelsey (Hilary Duff’s character) experience terrible bosses, making extra cash, dating, and even student loan debt. Hilary Duff plays an editor at the publishing company and Liza’s bff. I’m happy to say the Hilary is just as amazing now as in her Disney Channel days. She is gorgeous, smart, and fabulous. I think that her youthful perspective (and the fact that it’s Hilary FUCKING Duff) really draws in the post grad crowd.

I really enjoy this show because Liza and Kelsey are struggling, but they’re making it and that gives me hope. I will be as fabulous as Lizzie McGuire all grown up!

The first 3 seasons of Younger are available on Hulu.


My Glee Obsession

So I’ve been away for so long because of my renewed obsession with Glee. I recently started rewatching the show from the beginning because it’s a classic. Not in the typical sense of the word, but it created a cultural phenomenon and opened the door for shows that included singing like Galavant, Empire, live TV musicals, and that one season of American Horror Story (Freak Show).


The snarky and quirky tone was very different from anything else on television. And this show tackled issues that many shows were just beginning to acknowledge like sexual orientation, discrimination, and gender. The show’s political correctness and campy style often made it seem ridiculous. Those qualities were actually what contributed to the genius of it. The show sometimes didn’t make any sense and had some serious continuity issues (people literally changed ages and there was NO EXPLANATION) , but it made some really good points about very serious issues.

cory-monteith-lea-michele-glee-zoom-35652e55-9202-4ab5-a9ed-b9c0220a870eGlee also gave us Cory Monteith and some amazing covers (The Whitney Houston tribute is my favorite episode ever). The anniversary of Cory’s death just passed. He was a break out star who had a future ahead of him. Even after I had stopped watching the show, his death took me by surprise and really affected me. There was something so genuine about his performance as Finn Hudson. Plus the fact that Leah Michele played his onscreen girlfriend made his death even more heartbreaking. She lost two boyfriends instead of one. I highly recommend watching the tribute to Cory, “The Quarterback” episode (season 5 episode 3). It’s the saddest thing I have ever seen, but honestly does Cory and Finn justice.

After rewatching the whole show, I can say that Glee was able to successfully continue after graduating their main characters, adding new characters, and moving half the cast to New York City. Not many shows are able to make the transition from high school drama to adult drama. Glee managed to find a perfect balance between the high school world and college life in New York City. By the way the whole series is on Netflix if you’re looking to watch it all or only find a special themed episode.

Syracuse Summers

Syracuse summers are no joke. They are hot, sticky, and long. After moving into my new apartment (and meeting my roommates’ cats!!!), I have escaped to my boyfriend’s house in Oswego because:

a) He has air conditioning

b) He has wifi

c) I also love him


Actual photo of me in the Syracuse heat

It turns out that air conditioning and wifi are essential to post grad life here in Syracuse. How else can I search for jobs, watch Netflix, and be comfortable? Even though this might be one of the snowiest cities in America, it has (imo) the hottest summers. This is coming from a girl who grew up without an air conditioner in my house (for 22 very long years). I’m very used to the heat, but I can’t stand it up in Syracuse. There is something so draining and unappetizing to the humidity here. The thing is outside and my apartment are still going to be hot. I cannot run away to the air conditioning (and my boyfriend’s house) forever.

Maybe the key to post grad life is learning to stand the heat long enough to get an ‘air conditioner’ (excuse my terrible analogy). My new job is just around the corner. I just have to have faith that it’s coming. I’ll keep applying and calling and working the random odd jobs until I finally get something full time with benefits. I guess that’s the American dream.

Packing up my Childhood Room… Is it Time to Start Screaming Yet?

I’m currently packing and getting ready to move in to my new apartment this coming weekend! (I’m screaming and crying at the same time.) And of course that involves the typical things like job hunting, changing my address on documents, and packing up my childhood room.


It’s a very weird feeling that I will no longer be living at home. Even while I was away at school, I always came home in the summer and during breaks so it was still my room. This time around, I’m actually moving into a place. I signed A LEASE. It’s only for a year, but still. I have lived here for 22 years of my life. Even though my room was dirty and I always kinda of hated it, I had a place to come back to.

I have stuff from many, many obsessions over the course of my childhood: Elvis, Harry Potter, The Cheetah Girls, The Jonas Brothers, The Royal Family. The feeling of nostalgia is so strong. I’m so thankful for growing up in the Hudson Valley, that my parents let me be obsessed with so many random things, and that I had a happy childhood. This is sad, but it also feels amazing to finally get rid of everything I don’t use or need. A little girl (or boy) out there is gonna be so excited when they see all the stuff covered with cheetah prints and princesses. I’m obsessively hoarding all of my Harry Potter memorabilia because I want to show my kids the series and let them use the stuff.

Moving out is a part of growing up and I’m excited for the future. Plus my new apartment is so pretty!!

(I’ll add some pictures of my room and me as a child when I get the chance)

Reboots and Riverdale

I’ve been gone for so long! I found a job on Craigslist and survived. I stood around a Walmart for about 39 hours for a marketing company. It was terrible.

Okay, I love reboots! If done correctly, (i.e. The Mummy and Spider-Man: Homecoming are incorrect), they are one of my favorite things ever.

Correctness is determined by several factors: demand and originality. For example, there was literally no demand for The Mummy reboot. Brendan Fraser is so good and the original has such a sense of adventure. No one asked for Tom Cruise’s action remake. Originality is also very important for a remake. No one wants to see the same movie with different actors (I’m talking about you, Spider-Man: Homecoming.) And I get it the whole one big Marvel universe thing, but it’s a bit much. (Also Tobey and Kristen will always be my Peter and Mary Jane.)


Onto to Riverdale!! This show is so interesting because it uses the idea and characters created by Archie Comics and gives it a Twin Peaks- esque style. Instead of being a wholesome 1950’s high school drama, Riverdale is a modern teen thriller.


Riverdale is a small town where usually nothing bad happens. Over the summer, one of the popular high school students drowns in the river. This rocks the Riverdale community to its core. Betty and Jughead are determined to figure out what happened. Archie is preoccupied with girls and the choice between sports and music (Troy Bolton anyone?) Veronica is worried about fitting in and her dad’s ponzi scheme. The story is not only dramatic, but honestly compelling and continually has me guessing what’s going to happen next.

The great thing about this show is the little things they do to pay homage to the original comic books. Style is one of the biggest things that references the original. Betty and Veronica are styled in the classic archetypes: good girl and bad girl respectively. Veronica’s darker hair and more revealing clothing is contrasted with Betty’s high pony and pastel sweaters.


My favorite part about the show so far is the dream like sequence that actually emulates the original Archie Comics. It’s so cool!!!


The second season is now filming and I’m so excited for it to come out next summer!